Well OVERDUE in life!!! Reality Check!!!

You know how you get overdue books at the library well that's the way I have been feeling in life. That sense of needing to return life to normalcy yet I can't do it?! It's been overwhelming!  Do I have overdue books at the library you bet I do! Unfortunately it's one of those things that has been put on the back burner for well quite some time! 


I didn't announce my break from blogging to be honest I was pretty sure no one missed it except a few faithful friends from the good ole south :) 


So overwhelming, busy, hectic, and chaotic life...YUCK!!! Doesn't sound like a Spirit filled life now does it! I'm just gonna be real here! Life is tough you have days were you aren't perfect and honestly days when you don't even feel like getting out of your pj's! Yep that was me yesterday I stuck around the house all day yesterday in my jammies doing housework and letting my kids take a much needed break from the hustle and bustle of everyday life! Summer is crazy!!! I know you hear me MAMAS!!! 


So let's reel it in here...Spirit filled life...? Am I walking in the Spirit when I am so busy I can't tell you what my next 30 minutes is going to look like?! No how can I be; honestly, if life is passing me by then I am wasting it! What am I really doing? Existing that's it!!! I know there are seasons for everything but I don't want to stay in a season of just existing!! I want to be making a positive difference in the lives of people that surround me daily!


My husband, am I really being the best encouragement to my husband when I am running life on a whim, NOPE. My kids don't seem to mind it that they can play outside all day and then come in to eat and then back out to play! But where is the quality time in that lifestyle! There isn't! What a shame, what a rut my life has really been in! With God's help not anymore!!! I am glad God helps me to take a deep look at my life to straighten me out! I NEED IT!!! 


So my life; first I need to seek the Lord more earnestly and then I need to attempt to organize this so called life I am living!!! So I don't waste it all. I am not saying I think I need to schedule every waking moment but I do need to at least have a structure to build upon!  Allow myself to walk in a Spirit filled life!


I won't write you my list of what I want my life to look like because it's personal but I am glad that I took the time to get real with myself and evaluate what is really going on in my everyday life! I am praying for a positive change in my life and the life of my church family. It's been extremely hard being without a pastor at our church but it's no excuse for my personal relationship with the Lord to suffer because of it! He is my Shepard. 


Be Blessed everyone I am going to spend some time in the Word and see what the Lord truly has for me today!