Changes are part of the BIG plan

I miss writing so I wanted to hop on here quickly and put some thoughts to words spoken. I don't really have much to say but had the desire to write. Writing is my outlet it is a release for me! I don't feel I am a very good writer even though I have had people tell me they enjoy reading my writing. I honestly don't write because I feel I have any talent whatsoever in coming across as even the least bit skilled. My sentences are always run on sentences and I have a really hard time making my thoughts flow onto the page. My thoughts are usually somewhat scattered and definitely come off that way. You know what; oh well! I just hope through my deeper writings that anyone reading can glean the true meaning behind it! When I have something serious to write about I just hope in the end it brings glory and honor to the Lord. I do know that I have a desire when writing to do that one thing alone. I first started out this blog in hopes to disconnect from the social networks but it became more than that which is awesome! I wish I could be more faithful and commit more time to it! But I am a wife, a mother to three, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and most importantly a  child of the Lord's. That being said my priorities must be in line and not as scattered as my thoughts haha :) I have tried to get on at least on Saturdays and do a quick update or just even some thoughts.  So here are my thoughts on this week:

Life with three kids is amazing! The blessing of new life helps me all the more to cherish my two little girls that came before my new son. It takes you back to remembering when they were babies before they disobeyed and had a mind and attitude of their very own! HAHA I love love love my little girls they really are very independent I am realizing! They have taken on a new, what would I call this.... a new...demeanour. Most things have changed about them or at least maybe now I am seeing them more clearly since I am doing a lot of observing while I tend to Zane's needs. Faith has taken on to the role of biggest sister quite strongly whereas Justice has decided she is going to push her limits with Mom just to see how much she can get away with. I knew there was going to be challenges with the addition of a new baby but I didn't know what they would be. Some of the challenges that I didn't expect was that Faith would be really desiring extra attention almost constantly. This can be very tiring as a mother but it has me concerned enough to be aware that she will take negative attention if she will not get positive attention just as long as it is attention :( This is difficult for me but I also know it is a growth thing for me as well because I need to give my kids more positive attention. I am too hard on my kids sometimes expecting way to much! They need to see love and gentleness within my spirit towards them. One thing I have learned about myself is that I need to allow myself time to adjust to big changes. I dont' need to have everything together next week just because Zane will be over a month old. I have been mentally beating myself up over my short coming but having a new baby and two other children is a huge adjustment! Did I mention everyone in the house apart from Scott is sick! Faith and Zane are on breathing treatments because they are so sick with RSV. It's been alot to take on the basics but to all be sick takes it's toll on you physical and mental condition for sure! I am just happy for this time to reflect on what the Lord is really doing in my life during this season though. He is refining me constantly this is another part of my refining process. I know to be thankful because in all things if you allow it God can do mighty things through you if you have a willing and obedient spirit.