Sickness~Expect Miracles

I haven't posted in about 4 or more days. It's been a week that I would love for it to be over. With all the news of sickness this week I honestly had a very hard time about not being weary. Weary because I was questioning life and the road it was taking. In my mind I was screaming to myself no turn around go the other direction!!!! Why is this all happening???

As from previous posts you have seen alot of my loved ones have been sick with one thing or another. My husband's Grandma and Grandpa from Florida, my Pastor, my dad Richard, and to top it off all week my kids have been struggling with strep throat. This week has been especially hard because I found out news about Richard that is hard to handle. All the while I know God is in control. But I know myself well enough to know I want that control and I want to make it all go away. Thankfully my step-sister Janene was able to  get my dad into a doctor sooner. Getting him into the doctor earlier according to his new doctor was crucial. I am just so thankful to Janene for what she has done for him and the future of his health. This battle with his health is not close to over it's just beginning but at least now I know that we are headed in the right direction.

I know God will be faithful thru this time. I know His guiding hand will be with the doctors who operate on him. I don't know why this is happening but I know God has a perfect purpose behind this. I am hoping it strengthens the relationship with my step-sister Janene. We have had an strained relationship and I would love for it to be a good one again. We got along when I was younger but things happen as I hit my teen years and ever since then it's been just an unsettled relationship. I have so much to thank her for! I am hoping that we will be able to talk soon. I hope I can be a blessing to her during this tough time.

I went to see my Mom and Richard yesterday, it was hard to see him in pain. He is also very thin compared to his normal self. The pain is the hardest thing for me to see. It just breaks my heart to see this big strong guy wince at the pain he is enduring. I wish I could take it away! I am just so glad he goes back to the doctor in two days and we will all have clear direction on the way things are headed.

Right now I am just asking God to guide the way! Please keep him safe and Lord thank you so much for him. I love him dearly!